from cooking to senior trip to boys to my world....

ok. so its been a while since i put my last post up.. lots of stuff has happened..where shall we begin??

i participated in a scholarship cookoff for my college..but i didnt win. i was the most inexpericed person there and i placed 5th so it wasnt too bad but i wished that i had done better..but i did gain some very valuable knowledge :)

this tuesday i will be leaving for my senior trip! i am going with the Beckers to Disneyworld! should be lots of fun..

i revealed to the world that i had a boyfriend...he then proposed to me!!!! i couldnt say yes at 17, that would be way too foolish and immature....so then he dumped me :'( whoever said it was better to loved and lost than to never have loved at all...was a very stupid person! but i got me some good friends who helped me get over his stupid butt...or at least we're in the process of getting over him...

lately it seems like that my world is crumbling down around me and i can do nothing but sit back and watch it...every day seems to be a challenge and sometimes late at night when im thinking about the next day...i sometimes wish that i didnt have to get up and face the next day...

~love quotes~

again im sitting here trying to figure out what to put on my blog that you guys really want to read..since there's not much really going on with me..im just gonna put up some quotes that i found and i like..

Love is always patient, and kind, it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited, it is never rude or selfish, it does not take offense and it is not resentful.. it is always ready to excuse, to trust to hope and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end...

To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life..is to risk nothing.

I'll get over you..nothing else can get me down because ive been lower on the ground than you can imagine..as long as you're not around i'll make it through and i'll get over you..cause you are not worth my heart and you'll never hurt any part of me again..

what to post??? hmmm good question

im sitting here..thinking of what to put on my blog.. there is so much that i could say but i wont.. those are my secrets to bear.. no one else needs to know...im trying to think of something good and happy to post up here for all ya'll people to read..but so far..i've got absolutly nothing..been a hectic couple of days..actually a hectic couple of weeks. there have been some happy moments and a whole bunch of sad moments but thats really what makes it life. its like a rollercoaster goes up and goes down but either way its still going....

hope

HOPE: hope is what guides me..it guides me through the day and especially through the night..when everything is crashing down around me..as long as i have hope i will be ok.

heartbroken..

there's always that one friend that you thought would always be there for you..and when you find out that they dont care about you and never did it hurts.. it hurts really bad..and when you feel like you want to die from the pain. the pain in your heart that hurts so bad the rest of you body hurts..when you need someone the most and it seems like no one is there.. thats when your true friends come to your rescue. and you may have lots of true friends but there's always that one who stands out above the rest.. the one who stays up with you every night for a week while your crying.. who would beat anyone up who tried to hurt you..who cares about you so much that when you're in pain..they're in more pain just watching you try to handle it.. when you find that person..never ever let them go. they will never hurt you..always be there..that person cares more about you than anyone else in the world..and i am so thankful that i found mine. mine is the best!! he's like the big brother i never had.. when other's let me down..or when a guy breaks my heart he's always been there.

ps. as i was posting this he read it and wanted me to add: if a guy ever breaks my heart again they better watch out. :)

aubrye

my cousin aubrye she's gonna be 2 in one week! my beautiful baby girl!! this was her last year. lol she's gotten so much bigger!! and smarter lol. the kid like knows how to get out of trouble lol. aint she just adorable??? and you better say yes or ill beat you up ;)