heartbroken..

there's always that one friend that you thought would always be there for you..and when you find out that they dont care about you and never did it hurts.. it hurts really bad..and when you feel like you want to die from the pain. the pain in your heart that hurts so bad the rest of you body hurts..when you need someone the most and it seems like no one is there.. thats when your true friends come to your rescue. and you may have lots of true friends but there's always that one who stands out above the rest.. the one who stays up with you every night for a week while your crying.. who would beat anyone up who tried to hurt you..who cares about you so much that when you're in pain..they're in more pain just watching you try to handle it.. when you find that person..never ever let them go. they will never hurt you..always be there..that person cares more about you than anyone else in the world..and i am so thankful that i found mine. mine is the best!! he's like the big brother i never had.. when other's let me down..or when a guy breaks my heart he's always been there.

ps. as i was posting this he read it and wanted me to add: if a guy ever breaks my heart again they better watch out. :)

aubrye

my cousin aubrye she's gonna be 2 in one week! my beautiful baby girl!! this was her last year. lol she's gotten so much bigger!! and smarter lol. the kid like knows how to get out of trouble lol. aint she just adorable??? and you better say yes or ill beat you up ;)

<3 <3 <3

everyone has those very close friends who you can tell anything too right?? well what happens if you start to realize that you may like this person more than just as a friend? and it seems like he has the same feelings? do you risk your entire friendship to see if you're right? or do you keep it to yourself to keep your bestest friend in the world?? ahhh the drama i go through!!!! :)

senior

well school started and it seems to be flying by which is awesome!!!!!!! i have the easiest schedule ever!!!! :) i only have 269 days until i graduate!!!! ;) and i even have some money towards my senior trip already. im raising money at school and in two weeks i already have around $24 !!! how awesome is that?? im soo ready for senior trip too!! im going to the wilds. or at least im hoping to go to the wilds. this should be a fun , wild year. :)

its almost done

its august 4th and that means that summer is almost over. we start school in 20 days!! how scary is that?? the only thing scarier than that is the fact that im a senior this year!! ahhhh!! its very scary to think about. the whole growing up thing. im not sure if im quite ready to grow up yet. i dont like this at all. :/

old acquaintences

ok i was rooting throught the old files in my computer, cleaning it out and getting rid of all those old files we never use anymore, and i came across the email address for some old friends of mine who live in Brazil. i had tried to send them an email a couple of times but it wouldnt send through my aol account. so i decided to try it on my yahoo account just to see if it worked. and it did!!! i ws sooo happy!!! we emailed each other for a while and then they called!!! i was so excited. we talked for a while. and caught up with each other. they were graduates of MBBC and we hadnt talked in almost 4 years!! see the benefits you can get from cleaning???? =)

a complex ordeal

recently i was told by a very good friend to never give up. now usually i take this advice but im not sure this time. this person knows the whole situation that i am having problems with(i will not explain it so dont ask). but i trust this person and they know all about it. this person is constantly giving me advice which is usually very helpful. but this time it doesnt seem that helpful. it kind of just sounds like the same old thing and i know that they are trying to help me and maybe i need to hear it but they dont know the pain i go through. any suggestions people?