what to post??? hmmm good question

im sitting here..thinking of what to put on my blog.. there is so much that i could say but i wont.. those are my secrets to bear.. no one else needs to know...im trying to think of something good and happy to post up here for all ya'll people to read..but so far..i've got absolutly nothing..been a hectic couple of days..actually a hectic couple of weeks. there have been some happy moments and a whole bunch of sad moments but thats really what makes it life. its like a rollercoaster goes up and goes down but either way its still going....

hope

HOPE: hope is what guides me..it guides me through the day and especially through the night..when everything is crashing down around me..as long as i have hope i will be ok.

heartbroken..

there's always that one friend that you thought would always be there for you..and when you find out that they dont care about you and never did it hurts.. it hurts really bad..and when you feel like you want to die from the pain. the pain in your heart that hurts so bad the rest of you body hurts..when you need someone the most and it seems like no one is there.. thats when your true friends come to your rescue. and you may have lots of true friends but there's always that one who stands out above the rest.. the one who stays up with you every night for a week while your crying.. who would beat anyone up who tried to hurt you..who cares about you so much that when you're in pain..they're in more pain just watching you try to handle it.. when you find that person..never ever let them go. they will never hurt you..always be there..that person cares more about you than anyone else in the world..and i am so thankful that i found mine. mine is the best!! he's like the big brother i never had.. when other's let me down..or when a guy breaks my heart he's always been there.

ps. as i was posting this he read it and wanted me to add: if a guy ever breaks my heart again they better watch out. :)

aubrye

my cousin aubrye she's gonna be 2 in one week! my beautiful baby girl!! this was her last year. lol she's gotten so much bigger!! and smarter lol. the kid like knows how to get out of trouble lol. aint she just adorable??? and you better say yes or ill beat you up ;)

<3 <3 <3

everyone has those very close friends who you can tell anything too right?? well what happens if you start to realize that you may like this person more than just as a friend? and it seems like he has the same feelings? do you risk your entire friendship to see if you're right? or do you keep it to yourself to keep your bestest friend in the world?? ahhh the drama i go through!!!! :)

senior

well school started and it seems to be flying by which is awesome!!!!!!! i have the easiest schedule ever!!!! :) i only have 269 days until i graduate!!!! ;) and i even have some money towards my senior trip already. im raising money at school and in two weeks i already have around $24 !!! how awesome is that?? im soo ready for senior trip too!! im going to the wilds. or at least im hoping to go to the wilds. this should be a fun , wild year. :)